Indecision

Well indecision seems to be sticking around... I love grooming. I've been with PetSmart far too long, and I'm working with dogs and I thoroughly enjoy what I do. But I'm also a student at UC majoring in communication, minoring in psychology, and getting a certificate in Arabic. I love school, let's face it I've been a nerd since I can remember but I also love animals (I wanted to be a vet most of my childhood). Hence, the indecision...

I've come to the conclusion, that for the first time in my life I have no idea what the hell I want. It's a scary thought to admit that, but it's true. I changed my major a couple of times, knowing that I wanted to work with people. And I feel that I still really want that, but there is another thing that plays into it. My boyfriend has a certain medical issue, and when we starting getting more serious that's when my outlook changed. No longer is it just me watching out for myself, it's also me doing what's best for my family. The relationship I'm in now isn't just another relationship, this man truly is the one. Something was telling me from when we first started dating, and now after everything we've been through I realized... him and I were meant for each other.

I guess that's why I'm also scared. I'm so happy how everything is going, but as I said before I'm no longer just looking out for myself. I just want to be sure I'm doing what's in our best interest and I want to be sure that I'm also going to be doing something that I love and makes me happy.